What a week… It’s not easy to pack up your life and move on or just move in general. I’m definitely one of those people who needs closure. I didn’t get that with my last relationship. The other night I had a dream in which my ex apologized to me. I woke up thinking it was real. Perhaps it symbolizes the closure that I may never recieve in reality and this is my cue to actually move forward. Who knows, but it’s weird to me how the mind works. I haven't been thinking about him much since I left, because my time has been devoted to dancing and getting to know my cast. I tend to block out events in my life where the outcomes are not ideal instead of taking the time to deal with them. Right now, I have no time and he is just another misfortune I have to lock away and revisit later…or never. I also manage to focus solely on the positive memories of the past instead of the negatives. At least with this one, I know I didn’t do anything wrong. I will never EVER apologize for doing what I love and following my dreams. It is going to take a strong man to accept that. At least I make the one I’m in a relationship with a priority and not an option.
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| From Pinterest <3 |
In rehearsal news, we have learned 4 shows in 8 days! My brain is stuffed. This is without a doubt a wonderful experience. I am making friends, making money, getting in shape, and most importantly, being challenged. This will all help me in my pursuit of becoming a great cruise ship dancer, Rockette, NFL dancer and country music video girl in the near future. I am definitely living my dream. It is weird to think that this is work, but then I consider the struggle and rejection I have dealt with leading up to this moment and I couldn’t be happier to be doing this instead of something less exciting. Yesterday, we had a meeting with our production manager where we watched a video on our ship and discussed rules. Cruise ships are huge and it’s difficult to know which areas are off-limits based on the brochure we were given, but once we board, I know it will make more sense. I’m just beginning to enjoy Los Angeles now that we will be leaving soon. 3 weeks from today I will be performing my first show and sailing away! The only complaint I have at the moment is no air conditioning in our apartment and I'm pretty sure it's about 100 degrees. Anyone want to come over and do some Bikram?
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| Cookout |
We had a cookout after work. One of the guys in my cast has BA grilling skills and I ended up with some yummy chicken kabobs. Later on, Sarah and I spent time going over our dances in the pool. That pool must be magical, because we remembered EVERYTHING! Unfortunately, we had to relearn quite a bit in rehearsal today since we learned some things yesterday that were not correct.
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| My overly enthusiastic about chicken kabobs face? |
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